Ramblings of an unsettled mind and a broken heart.

Why is it that the good people are always taken away from us too soon? They’re taken right at the moment where they are meant to be enjoying their lives, fulfilling them to the fullest. One bright smile in the morning, kissing you goodbye, caressing your cheek and kissing your lips ever so gently, in promise to see one another soon. And to find out that not too much after that that sweet, soft good morning kiss is the agonizingly bitter kiss goodbye. You find yourself grasping at the sheets, desperately pinching yourself over and over again, trying to wake up from this nightmare; finding that the nightmare becomes your reality. No matter how hard you pinch yourself, no matter how much you hope and pray, that he’s never coming back.

                What makes it worse is that they’re gone, just as their life begins, just as they are about to experience the many joys of life, and just as they are planning to start a family with that same person they have been with for over 7 years. Life is cruel, it’s unjust and the fact that we don’t take advantage of every moment is concerning.

                I haven’t personally lived very long, always in the strict confinements of my own home, having wog parents with wog rules always limiting me from doing things that I want to do. In their minds they’re protecting me… however it’s cases like these that make me think that if I was here today and gone tomorrow, did I really live?

                When we’re little, we always tend to wish we were grown-ups; we wish to drive, to fall in love, to get married and live in a beautiful palace and have hundreds of babies and that life will be A-Okay. It’s not until we start growing up, that we realize that falling in love hurts, getting married isn’t easy, and living in a palace is well out of your budget. But most of all you realize the haunting truth – that life is just too short. It’s unjust. It’s cruel.

                What I’m trying to say is, you and I were once childhood friends; you’d look after me, care for me and put up with me just like an older brother. Whenever I visited mum’s class, you were the first one to put your arms around my shoulders and guide me. You put up with my constant MSN pestering as I was going through the needy incessant teenager stage without ever once ignoring me or blocking me out. We may not have spoken in a long time, but those small memories, the fact that you made an impact on my childhood and somewhat left a footprint in my heart after all these years. You used to talk to me about your childhood sweetheart, how much you cared for her – making me believe that love truly does exist. And having found out that you married her only two weeks ago makes my heart sink. You’re gone now, but your memory won’t ever fade. Gone at only 20 years of age, you leave us with the age old life lesson: Life is short. Rest in peace Bedz, may God have mercy on your soul… and may you be in a better place, where that cheekily sweet smile blooms on your face forever. 


[review] The Five People You Meet In Heaven by Mitch Albom

Lately I’ve been really into books which I call ‘realistic fiction’ – books that are fiction but still realistic (and sometimes offer something to learn). The last few have been by Mitch Albom and Haruki Murakami and I plan to read more of their books.

Maybe it’s just because of the stage I’m at in life – at the beginning of life as an ‘adult’ and working around the transition between high school and university – but I find that these books are not only interesting but also somewhat inspiring.

Anyway, the latest one I finished was The Five People You Meet In Heaven by Mitch Albom, and that’s what I’m going to talk about in this review.

enjoy 🙂


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Quick update

VCE continues to be quite a handful and for obvious reasons we are not posting much here.

However, some of us are still blogging in secret.

Ennie and I both have our own blogs:

Ennie: Guardian for you

Helix: The Really Bad Idea

Thank you to every one still checking this out even though we haven’t posted anything in a while. We really appreciate it.


Personality test

It’s a personality test which analyses your personality based on your answers which reflect the way you make decisions

Composed by two psychologists Carl Jung and Isabel Briggs Myers

It’s well renowned, and if you answer truthfully, it can be very accurate!


Why not give it a shot, if you’re procrastinating or bored? 😀


classic shortbread recipe

Hi all~~~

I found a shortbread recipe amongst all the random files I have, and decided to share, since Ivy/Vine has left us 😦

Without further ado~


Classic Shortbread



  • 250g butter
  • ½ cup caster sugar
  • 1 teaspoon vanilla essence
  • 2 cups plain flour
  • ½ cup rice flour
  • 1 table spoon caster sugar, extra



  1. Preheat oven to 160oC or 140oC fan. Line two baking trays with non-stick baking paper. Using electric beaters, beat the butter, sugar and vanilla until light and creamy. Sift in the flours, and mix together with a non-serrated knife until evenly mixed. Gather the dough together and divide into two equal portions
  2. Place each portion on a prepared tray and flatten out to 20cm round. Pinch the edges to decorate, and score into 8 wedges. Sprinkle with extra caster sugar and bake for 35 minutes, until pale golden.
  3. Stand on tray for 5 minutes, then transfer to wire rack to cool. Break into wedges to serve. Store in an airtight container for up to 1 week.


Note: If you like, you could also add copped nuts or finely grated lemon or orange rind to the dough.

**Note: For cut out shapes, change the oven temperature to 140-150 oC and cook for 18-20 minutes